Dum Dee Dum...i'm seventeen and i hate pink. I possess a mental phonebook with twenty-three contacts of people who matters. I have a fetish for all sorts of musical instruments. I aspire to be an accomplished pianist and harpist by my own standards. I live in my own self-created society that lauds nothing but individualism & independence. I seem to contradict myself every moment and leave everyone else confused and shrouded. Despite everything that frustrates the hell outta the people around, I'm madly in love with myself.
why is it that i never get anything when i try, but get everything when i don't?
i can't try for nuts. i can't want anything. because i dun seem to be able to get the things that i want, which are things that i try to get. i just get things that i dun really want, and don't bother trying.
you know the saying that you cant want something too much or you'll lose it..? i think it so applies to me.
i don't get anything that i deserve. yet i get everything that i don't.
you guys think it's unfair. i think it's unfair too.
maybe i should teach myself to not want anything, so that i'll get everything. and need not have to go through all the pain of losing the things that you wanted again and again.
i dun understand the way i function.
I have never tried so hard to trust someone. There was never a need to.
